Come As You Are

 

I think if I were to poll one hundred people, most would be like me. In life, we tend to look at things that happen to us. We react. We ponder. We worry. We wonder. We change. We move. We ebb and flow within our circumstantial limits. A lot of what happens to us defines how we move forward. Something good happens, all is okay that day. If something bad happens, it affects who we are. Simple, right?

Nope.

Sometimes I feel like for 27 years of life, there’s been a lot that has happened that has directed my steps. Through others sin, hurt, abuse, and pain, it led to my reaction of my own sin cycle of addiction, cold-heartedness, and eventually jail – chains I put on myself. This cycle led to depression and an unwavering self-doubt that I had any purpose in life. Undoubtedly, I reacted in a bad way to the circumstances in my life. I was fickle in my thinking that I could handle life on my own.

You see, something happens when we rely on ourselves. We simply just cannot do things in our own strength. About a year and a half ago, my life changed. That’s almost an understatement. Through a divine encounter with broken, messy grace, God captivated my heart fully while in the middle of an African desert. I came with the pretense that I would be serving God, but really what I found out is that I didn’t really know God. But, He had other plans to save my life.

I can’t really pinpoint what exactly happened. It was a mix of having nowhere to go but God. And also, people that God placed in my life, that for the first time, spoke words of life into me about God and His love that I still hold onto today. I think God is sometimes funny like that. He knows me, His child, so well that He knew He had to bring me out into the middle of nothing to get my attention. If you know me, you’re probably laughing right now.

It was here in Africa that I started to realize that I had to face what had happened but not on my own. In Christ’s strength, He took every single circumstance that had happened to me or that I had created on my own and nailed it to the cross. The grace of the Cross is messy and beautiful. Tragic and amazing. Hard but wonderful. When I finally believed that I had worth and identity in Christ, my whole world changed. 

“You have to make what Jesus did for you bigger than what has happened to you.”

When I first heard that quote, I was so convicted. I think we tend to live our lives reacting to things that happen to us. We blame our circumstances on others or what is going on around us. For the first time in that African desert, I had to come to the conclusion that the blood of Jesus Christ took care of every pain, hurt, mistake, shame, or hopelessness that I feel. Jesus died for ME. For you. For all of us, so that we may live in freedom. There is absolutely nothing less or more I could do to be saved. Christ redeemed me.

It’s been a little over a year and a half since I first came to Africa and I find myself here again. But not here by my own effort. Only by the loving kindness and grace of God. He brought me this far to write this part of my story in using what had happened in my life to speak to others. I can walk in freedom because of Christ. I can look at the things that happened and not be completely and utterly devastated because I can look to a savior who is the ultimate comforter.

“The Lord is my shepherd. I lack nothing.” Psalm 23:1

As I sat there and read this verse this morning, one I’ve read a thousand times, I am amazed that it puts right there how we need to live. I lack NOTHING. This doesn’t mean that everything is okay but could be better. It doesn’t mean that I need to be defeated because of situations in my life. It doesn’t mean I need to worry about what is going to happen. It literally means there is NOTHING that I need more than Jesus. If I am resting in His love and freedom, my life lacks nothing.

And that’s where I find myself. God brought me out of unbearable chains so I can turn around and tell others that they too, lack nothing. On the days where life seems a little bit harder, I constantly am reminding myself that the Lord is my shepherd and I lack nothing. Nowadays, instead of singing the tune of living in the hurt, I can absolutely say that freedom in Christ is better when I truly step into it. When we fully surrender to His love, we are consumed and from that, want to love others.

I’m amazed daily that this is the story God is writing in my life. I’m amazed that God put me back in the place that is home with people who are family and allows me to tell of His life-saving love. I want to always remember that there is nothing in this world that is greater than God’s love for us. And for you too, friends, there is nothing too big that God cannot handle. He loves you just as you are.

Jesus didn’t say “come to me when you are perfect.” He simply says, “Come as you are.” Let’s come to Him today. Life may be messy but God just wants to love you right now. Rest today in that. I know I am.

 

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Better than the Easter Bunny

I never truly understood Easter. Like, I got the cute bunny and Easter egg part. I was more happy about chocolate, or in my case, white chocolate more than I understood what the actual meaning of this Holiday is. Easter has become one of my favorites, if not favorite Holiday to celebrate. It’s not because there are any special gifts, food or even a special tradition of sorts. Easter is my favorite holiday because of so much more.

Easter is the reason we are here. I know, I know, you’re saying, “Jesus was born on Christmas.” No, I am not dumb. But, because Jesus rose from the tomb, we are here: worry free, guilt free and blameless. We celebrate an empty tomb, but have you ever really thought about it? Like, that thousand pound rock couldn’t have just moved. Only by the power of God did Jesus rise from the dead and walk out of the tomb. Many were in disbelief. Sometimes, even we can fall into disbelief that God is, in fact, that powerful.

When we really think about it, he’s better than any superhero. He is our super hero. God sent His son for us to die in the worst way possible, but so we could live in the best way possible.  By giving us his son at Christmas (John 3:16) and Him walking a sinless life and dying for us, God gives us the gift of a more abundant life than we could ever imagine (1 John 3:20).

This Easter, there is so much to be thankful for. The empty tomb symbolizes so much. It symbolizes our own death and resurrection in Jesus. We get to walk freely and out of our tombs daily because Jesus died on a cross for us. We get to abundantly enjoy family, friends and every day joys all while having joy in the One who created us. It’s easy to get wrapped up in our own faults and failures. I do it at least once a day. But, deep down, knowing that Jesus’ sacrifice covers all of our past; present and future sins and failures are enough for me to sing His praises this morning. (Psalm 104:33).